Myth: Allah is going to write me off.
Don’t confuse what people think of you with what Allah thinks of you.
We are usually one of the two types of sinners. We either take it all very lightly and shrug it off thinking no harm done; or we can’t forgive ourselves for the awful sins we have committed. And we sentence ourselves to misery assuming there’s no way we can face Allah after what we have done and said and the lines we crossed.
But Allah hasn’t given up on us. He never does.
Say (on My behalf), “O servants of Mine who have acted recklessly against their own selves, do not despair of Allah’s mercy. Surely, Allah will forgive all sins. Surely, He is the One who is the Most-Forgiving, the Very-Merciful. (39:53)
There’s hope even for the hypocrites who have been shunned into the lowest, deepest pit of Hellfire as Allah says in the Quran. But even there He makes an exception for those who turn back later. If there’s redemption for the potential bottom-most level dwellers of Hell, then there’s redemption for us too. There are people who only pray Friday to Friday. For some, it’s just Eid prayer that is left. Most of them only try to pray and fast in Ramadan. That’s all the doors they have.
Tonight is going to be another long one. Give Allah a chance and you’ll find Him waiting at the door you left open. Talk to Him. About anything and everything. His Mercy is greater than the monstrosity of our sins that we did deliberately, unintentionally or in full-blown rebellion. So long as you backtrack to His doorstep. What happens when you turn back? All of your sins will be forgiven. No conditions, no questions asked. Clean slate.
The month is closing out. The night will soon break into dawn. It’s about time we have that talk. Pour out the inner turmoil that you have held back over the years. You will realize that those tears were the only ones that were worth your distress.